Time is Flying Too Fast, and Too Slow.

So, I realized I don't know what I have a blog for if I never update it, I mean I know I'm not the writing type, but I don't know how to write anymore. I mean since September a shit load of things have happened, and to write about it would take me days, many many posts and pages. I mean December itself was insane, and now I started National Service, seriously. Why I'm writing this now, I really don't know. If anyone is to blame its Sunlounger and Zara, they making me feel depressed, but I can't stop listening...

I'm on Saturday night now, which means I've got to go back tomorrow. Life moves really slow from Monday to Friday, but the weekends just fly by so fast, I don't even have time to think anymore. I find myself tired, but not the, "I want to sleep forever tired", it's the "I don't know what to do about this feeling" tired. I don't even know why I decided to write this, I mean I am sitting here thinking of what to say. Why am I forcing myself...

Sana isn't here either, I hope she is having a good time though, I mean I'm sure is. I went for a run today, and I have no idea how long it was, but it felt long. I got to the beach at the end point, and well, that felt nice. There's something about hearing the waves come in and out over and over that makes you forget about everything. Maybe I should buy a beach house.

Ravi is gone, I know he is coming back, but feels weird now. I didn't feel like I was going to miss him yesterday, but I do feel it today. I guess I just never really thought about it. I wonder when I'm going to feel the comfort of having everyone around at the same time. To be honest I think I just want to go out and listen to music and chill somewhere alone. So far my post has made no sense what so ever, but I guess that's the point.

The ocean is dry.
Do you feel hollow?
Nowhere to hide
And nothing to swallow

And when you can't recognize
Anything solid
Where do you turn?
When you can't buy it?

What can you believe in now
With no love to follow?
Now that you have lost yourself
Oh, can anything help you now?

Just let your fears go
You might find your way back home
Let your fears go
You might find that you're not lost




The cycle continues...